It was on a Thursday evening, 9th August 2012, when I went to a digs party off-campus with a couple of my friends. I had a vague plan of how I wanted to end it that night, of how I would kill myself (I'm not going to disclose what that entailed). This was a significant … Continue reading An Inconvenience
In their wake suicides leave a lot of pain, confusion and sometimes mystery. No matter how devastating suicides are there is something that can be learned from them. That is what I discovered in the last four years when I lost my two friends and a cousin to suicide. Quality of life. One of the … Continue reading I Lost Loved Ones to Suicide, Here’s What I Learned.
This is not how man should live, with a heart so heavy he sinks through the floor. I get so tired of the fatigues and the sickness. I get so lost within myself. To find anyone, would truly give me some sort of peace – a chance to escape myself would be heaven. Can I … Continue reading Cries Of A Boar
Depressed people are notorious for dwelling on the negative. A lot of people often think that it is something they can snap out of if they try hard enough, despite ample information on the Internet and other resources informing people that depressed individuals can’t simply change their attitude. There is a neurological reason for this. … Continue reading The Neurological Reason Depressed People Can’t Stop Being Negative
I have always been the kind of person who hates asking for help. That is because most of my life I have done pretty well helping myself, and because of that I had learned that there is nothing I couldn’t figure out if I put my mind to it, no challenge I couldn’t overcome and … Continue reading The Value in Asking for Help
I have been thinking for a while about the nature of loneliness. Obviously being lonely isn't being alone, people can be alone and not be lonely. People can also be lonely in a group of people. So, what is it to be lonely? My experience of being lonely around people came to me with my … Continue reading What is at the core of loneliness?
Friendships, we never know when they start and we can’t predict how they’ll end either. We hope they’ll never end. Then, once in a while, an end comes, unsuspected and unexpected, far from pretty or the usual growing-apart, changing the lives of all involved forever. *** Friday late afternoon, a bulk of Scarlet University students … Continue reading Pyre of Envy I: Friends
Knife! Sharp and merciless, Shoots me up to the heavens where everyone is quiet And there is no air to breathe. Sometimes you need A little silence, A brief moment of heaven An escape from the noise. And the blade is a good friend at that, Trading pain for heaven. See the scars on these … Continue reading Don’t Mind Them
No, don't lie to us. The air is thick and heavy Yhe soul drags and convulses. We all know how sacred the razor, the rope and the bullet are. We sum them up in a word and we could utter in moments of frustration, Like a mere figure of speech. A hyperbole, something humorous and … Continue reading The Ultimate Act
As they walked into the bookstore a bell dinged. After a quick scan, they noticed they were one of the few customers inside the store, the environment was tranquil and cool. Just the way Rolemn preferred it. Busy stores made him uneasy, he’d always feel like he was bound to screw something up and that … Continue reading Pyre of Envy XII: Same Old, Same Old