It was on a Thursday evening, 9th August 2012, when I went to a digs party off-campus with a couple of my friends. I had a vague plan of how I wanted to end it that night, of how I would kill myself (I'm not going to disclose what that entailed). This was a significant … Continue reading An Inconvenience
Depleted, I can't give more than I have given. Can't be anymore than what I am given. Wasting limbs and sore thoughts, Encroaching demands and taxing expectations. Spending on that which never pays. Working on that which yields nothing. And somehow I'm told this the way things. Hi everyone. I just want to tell you … Continue reading Deplete
Rooted, Facing forward, growing backwards. Clockwise hunger From the gaping mouth. Of the blackening light and the veering soul. Concussed conscience. All the shimmering and whispering of a smouldering home and scything teeth. And there you watch as my skin melts into its pores.
Feed me my cracked heart I scoffed the soot, I drank it all Churned it all. Burned like ash, Breathed like earth, Cracked like hearth. Peeling. Hollow. Find me, A sharpened knife A daggered grave, An endless grief. Straining. Hollow.
Not everything should make you happy. Not everything should make sense. Not everything has a point. Not everything should make you happy. Not everything should make you happy. Not everything should make you happy. ...make you happy, ...make you happy. ...make you happy. And that's fine.
When we went see my mother at the hospital she was very sick. They had just amputated her leg. She had lost tremendous weight. Her skin clung to her bones, her hair was frazzled and her eyes sunk into her skull. We were distraught by just how frail she looked. But my mother was still … Continue reading Mother
It comes to you on the street. Tralloping, galloping to its prey. Those heads smash all they touch. Pulverizing, demolishing - left with crumbles. Be-cause There's a rea- -son why When we, We look In- -side. You will find- A shi- Mmer- -Ing light. They're digging, they're smashing, They are sniffing. Demolishing,pulverizing. They are looking … Continue reading Shimmer This Way
I had that dream again, the one where I kneel before you and make overtures. I awoke, confronted by my fear of intimacy, my shunning of it in pursuit of a more o it. Each day I'm more afraid than the last that I'm losing you. You will have to push me because I'm a … Continue reading Dissonance
"I feel spread on a pourous surface Like I'm being strained. Like I'm seeping into something darker." She felt the large body of water gushing past the bridge pulling at her insides. Hair flickering in the breeze, She cut it on her teeth. A man watched from his apartment, Mesmerised by a ghostly image, Or … Continue reading To Be Caught
I am behind my phone again looking at my friends. Looking at them lie about everything. About their relationships, about their feelings, their the world, about their appearance and their thoughts. I watch them lie about their personalities, achievements and attitudes. They lie and lie and lie, and I watch, redacted but affected. With so … Continue reading Liars